So when you say forever, I have been feeling uninspired lately. This whole summer had been fun. But overall, it was bad-influenced, alcohol-induced, illegal fun. & it's very uninspiring. My creativity is at an all-time low. That depresses me. It seems my vocabulary decreased greatly since what keeps coming out of my mouth is "dawg", "fool", "fuck", "shit", "homie". Whatever happened to, "He was the epitome of a what everyone discerned as a
dreamboy. With his immensely sea-foam green eyes along with the intense aura emanating from them whenever he, even so much, takes a glance at me." Okay, maybe I still got it. I made all of that up right now. I just miss writing. I miss it when my mom used to trust me.
But don't get me wrong, I loved this summer especially with the company by my side all the time. AKA the Debut Crew & a few beloved others. But these bad habits, man... haha, it will be the death of us.
I remember Phoebe telling me as I clutched onto a vomit-filled plastic bag belonging to me, "I feel like every night, whenever I drop you off, you're drunk." Made me LOL too hard.
It's alright. It's alright.
Anyway, school is in a week.
I need to put my game face on for college.
But then again, when did I ever put a game face on for school?
It sucks though, because I know I can't always wing it all the time. I can't always.. I don't know, I can't always.. I just -- I can't fuck up. College will be so much harder than high school & I must etch that into my mind.
Can't you see? You've already captured me.
