I'm really dizzy. Is it because I'm sleepy ? But I've gone longer without sleeping before & I was never dizzy. My world is spinning & I have no idea why.

Last night, I watched New Moon & it was such an amazing adaptation of the book. That's all there is to it. That's all I can say. because I'm still spinning & I don't know why.

REPRESSION :

Have you guys heard of that? Repression is when you numb yourself because you don't want to feel the same old fucking pain anymore. It's like a defense mechanism. Sometimes it happens without a person's consent. & then they wonder why they can't cry. & it drives them crazy.

Even after everything, I'd rather feel pain. Because honestly that's all I have to know that I am alive. Tears are a reminder of our suffering & happiness.

There's more to this life, I know.

But I don't know.

I just want someone to prove me wrong.