What the hell, man. Right when school's in a week, I fuck up my sleeping schedule. I slept at 4:30 this morning. I was watching Mortal Kombat. Robin Shou was so hot in that movie, haha. He's old now though, that movie was like 13 years ago. He's playing Gen in that new Chun Li movie. DUDE, KRISTIN KREUK is going to be Chun Li. She is fucking gorgeous. Like FUCKING GORGEOUS. Hence the bolded & capitalized letters, lmfao ._.

What should I do today?
Considering I wasted most of it, haha.
Maybe draw,
I drew something last night after like four months.
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I smell,
I shower now.
I'll update, most likely, later on.


//edit//

I have a headache.
I hate headaches, headaches are a bitch, headaches kill your day, they kill your mood.
So, why do we get headaches?
Because life's a bitch &then you die.
... just kidding, roflmao

& so, my summer is coming to an end. I'm not really that sad about it, I'm over summer. I feel like it ended last month anyway, bah.
But this Sunday is my 18th birthday, & I'm going to celebrate by having lunch at LA Buffet with my famuhlayy & fwens.
I hope it turns out well, I'm sure it will. Should be fun, haha.
I'm turning eighteen, can you believe that shit?
Because I can't.
It's like any other year though of turning a year older. Like "ohh shit, didn't I just turn 15? Now I'm 16!"
Only now it's like some sort of wake up call. I'm turning eighteen, & being eighteen means that you're basically not a minor anymore, & any wrong I do people won't do the "Well, she's still a kid" because..I'm not. Am I?

I must seem really ungrateful right now.
My mother annoys the fuck out of me so bad sometimes, I just want to tell her to FUCK OFF.
I'm a bad daughter.

I guess everything is just getting on my nerves lately, it's most likely my period.
Before, & after is when I'm most bitchy, during is when I'm emotionally unstable but hardly ever mean, haha. It's weird, I know. Actually, I'm weird. mm, hey fuck you.
I don't know, I'm complicated, I contradict myself a lot, it's like I say something negative then I end up making myself feel better after a second.

People that I care about who are going through tough times make me really sad. & it hurts me, too, in a way.
Like I can't do anything for them, & then I say some positive stuff to make them feel better, & they say, "Thank you, Ling" & I'm left feeling like shit knowing I didn't really do much but they say thank you anyway. It's like, damn, why can't all the good people get what they deserve? Why do the ones who don't deserve happiness get to be happy?
This world --
needs something beautiful.
But right now,
it needs to die
& start over.

Even if we all die in the process.

It's not like I've contributed much anyway, haha.