This is me, still the same


Sometimes, I catch myself talking to myself, arguing with myself, scolding myself, & answering my own questions. I haven't had a good night's sleep in so long, I don't know why. It's hard now. My insomnia is at its peak, it gets frustrating. I haven't heard my alarm clock in two weeks because I am always awake. I am fucking up in every way possible with school but I'm not doing shit about it. As of right now, I'm laughing at myself. My failures.
Am I happy? I don't know. I honestly don't. Although I have my good days. My homie tells me that I am insane & me not sleeping can give me diabetes. I googled it, I mean it's not that I didn't trust his word, I wanted to read on it myself. & yeah, it's true. He said, "Smoke weeeed" to cure my sleeplessness. I LOL'd IRL. It does help though.
I don't know what to do right now. I want Chinese food. I need to get out of my house.
After my laundry, I'll leave.