You're pushing and pulling me down to you.

I don't know what to do or say anymore. People, people, people I love, I care for, having meltdowns, I don't know how to handle it. I used to know how, I used to know what to say. Now I don't. I'm frustrated, distraught. Universally speaking, it fucking sucks. Did I change? Is my mind deteriorating? I don't want that. I really do not want that.


You told her that you loved her, but you don't.
You touch her skin and then you think,
that she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me.

I don't understand but I do. Lust? You want but you don't want. At least for the long run. It disgusts me, but it does not. It's a natural human trait. People who claim that they haven't lusted over someone before are liars. Or it could be that they believe they had loved because they told themselves over and over, so they started to believe themselves.


Believe me, I'm flying
Believe me, I'm flying
Believe me,
I will be flying.